I need a life where I have a reason to wake up in the morning and not at like 1-2 in the afternoon. I feel the need to be motivated for something, to do something good with my life. I just want to have a proper full time job instead of the shit i’m stuck in at the moment, I want to move out of this fucking house, I’d like to live a life worth living. The life I lead currently is just not good enough, not good enough at all. I’m not good enough. Anything I fucking do is just shit, complete shit and totally worthless like, why bother with anything when you can just be a worthless cunt, right? This world is corrupt and fake. I’m always thinking idealistically and forward, because if I don’t, I see the now, the “What the fuck am I doing with my life?” and every time I try to change the present shit always happens, like, give me a fucking break for once. This is just some shitty rant, sorry to followers that dislike this shit it’s just a one time thing.